by KellyKeelo | Apr 28, 2015 | DETOX, HAPPINESS, KELLY KEELO, MEDITATION, MENTAL WELLNESS
We all claim to want to be happy. Happiness is part of the dream, isn’t it? That moment of triumph when you feel a level of success at your “whatever”. When everything falls into place so that you get to bask in the glow of your awesomeness. It’s what is supposed to be driving us all. But if you grew up in an environment that was less than ideal struggling just to keep focused, how do you learn what “being happy” actually means? I realize that I have met quite a few Negative Energy Addicts…being a former addict myself. Yup. “My name is Kelly Keelo and I am a Negative Energy Addict….Heyyy Everyone.”  I realized several years ago my addiction by paying attention to my thoughts. If my mind was left to its own devices, its conversations with me were pretty harsh. It told me what I wasn’t doing. who didn’t like or love me, all the potential problems that could possibly happen, and how ugly the world was. And I wondered, why does my mind come back to that pattern over and over again? Why was I choosing (even when everything was going well) to focus on what was wrong? The truth was I never learned what happiness felt like. My home life wasn’t necessarily happy and kids in elementary school weren’t super kind. By the time I got to high school I was just a shell trying to fit in. My high school was more concerned with teaching us 3 languages then improving our internal dialogue. So I learned to be book smart and emotionally messy. I thought...
by KellyKeelo | Apr 9, 2015 | HAPPINESS, KELLY KEELO, MENTAL WELLNESS
I tend to see the good in people, even when their negative tendencies are literally smacking me in the face. I like to give everyone the benefit of the doubt. I think part of the reason is that I have had a life full of people making assumptions about my character based on reasons and logic that is flawed, at best. I have an introverted personality. Although I am a great public speaker when it comes to providing people with information (and I love doing it), small talk with small groups of folks I have nothing in common with is not my thing. I usually don’t fit in. I don’t watch what most watch on tv ( I love documentaries), I don’t go ga-ga at shopping (unless I really need something), I don’t listen to current music (soul house, jazz, 90’s hip hop – yes!) and discussing other people’s business or giving opinions about things that I don’t have direct knowledge of makes me cringe. This doesn’t work well in most groups. And as a young girl, I got that classic label of being “stuck up”. Awesome….. So the little sad clown that I was, just couldn’t pass up anyone who “acted” like they liked me. Often I would bore myself to tears trying to be a part of a group which didn’t necessarily blend in with my energy or interests. And because of this, many of my friendships were just empty shells of activity. I fell into the role of “the helper” . If you needed someone reliable to help you do whatever or talk you through some chaos, my phone would ring....
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